Thursday, October 20, 2016

Rearranging Ideas--A Note From The Authoress

Hey Y'all!

First of all, of course, I want to thank each and every one of you who takes time out of your day to swing by here and read the stories I write. It truly makes me so happy and proud my work is appreciated and enjoyed.

That being said, I'll get to the point of this post.
A friend of mine called me a "prolific" writer, because of the number of stories I have popped out and posted not only onto this blog but a couple of others, depending on the subject matter.
The thing about me is, at any given time, I'm else brainstorming new ideas or organizing a story in my head. This is all the time, all day and all not if I'm not actively focused on something else.
For instance, this morning at 6 am, I woke up with an idea. And it's not unusual for me to be struck at 2, 3, or 4 am, earlier later, my thought process knows no bounds.
The thing is, not all my stories are "original".
Now before you go to hollering I'm plagiarizing, let me explain that I'm actually NOT.
I come up with ideas so quickly sometimes that I cannot write them all and instead have a special document to hold ideas until I can get around to them or feel inspired to work on them.
And in the process, stories meant  for a certain Jackson might and/or will wind up being used for another.
This morning I was inspired for a story specifically for the youngest member of 3T: TJ Jackson.

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I always kind of struggle with coming up with stories for TJ, not because he isn't good looking or anything, its just most of my eroticas are kind of on the raunchy side and TJ strikes me as more the romantic type, so I try to put stories revolving around him more into that sort of vein. Mushy and lovey-dovey... and I'll be honest, that romantic stuff is a challenge for me. I don't really like romantic stuff and I just am not drawn to romance like most women are. Perhaps I'm more blunt, I don't need. The whole roses and boxed chocolates route never really resonated with me, and I just think it's a waste of time and money. You want me, tell me. Don't ply me with dying plants and a heart-shaped box of calories I don't need.
I digress.
This is where the rearranging of ideas came in at. The outline for the TJ story I put to paper, was actually the third incantation of an idea I had YEARS ago. Before my foray into 3T-themed eroticas, I wrote Michael Jackson ones. (I will go back to MJ eventually, I'm just tuned into to 3T at the moment)
The idea I had initially involved Michael Jackson and his older brother Jermaine.
As I'm very looks oriented, I selected how I had wanted Michael to appear in the story :

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But I got taken with other projects and eventually this look for Michael was instead used for an erotica called "Testimony" which also featured pop star, Prince.
At some point between then and now, the story evolved to still include Michael Jackson, but instead of his brother Jermaine, I had switched it up for Taryll Jackson, his nephew, and TJ's older brother.

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Perhaps it's nepotism, but EVERY 3T solo erotica starts as a Taryll story and then I kind of break it down and say "No, this is better suited for Taj" or "This would do better with TJ" Taryll is my favorite so he kind of gets special treatment.
But I'm always trying to change it up and challenge myself, and with this particular idea I wanted one of the uncles (you will never catch Tito and one of his sons together in my eroticas, I gotta draw that line somewhere!!!!) to be mean to this particular girl, and TJ basically is the hero, swooping in to save her.  I  just can't imagine Michael Jackson as a villain in any story, he's so nice, so I chose a different uncle. I won't say who, it'll spoil the story, but I chose a different uncle and threw TJ in there .
I do rearrange and augment different stories like that all the time.
My first 3T erotica "Trouble in Paradise" was supposed to be a Taryll solo, but since it was my first try at a story with them, I decided to make it a full 3T erotica instead. People liked it so I know I made the correct choice.

I have tons more ideas I want to work on and at the moment I am starting a 3T horror story for Halloween, so stick around. That should be going up soon.
Again, thank you so much from reading!!! Much love!

Sunday, October 16, 2016

Aggressive--A Taryll Jackson Solo Erotica

For the greater part of my life, I've been made keenly aware that one of the “flaws” of my personality was how stubborn and pig-headed most people perceived me to be. (I'm honestly nice once you get to know me.) But I am a Taurus and we're notorious for being stubborn. In a way, I actually kind of parodied myself when I wrote this story. But let's be serious for a moment, if I ever had a shot at Taryll Jackson, or someone similar to him, I'd treat him like a king...instead of like a pauper as you'll see in this story...Enjoy.


"Aggressive"
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A Taryll Jackson Erotic Short Story By:
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Sparta, California
Spring, 2015

Angry.
He was supposed to be angry.
The Lord only knew he had every right to be.
Between the mental torment, nonstop aggravation, and now the dull, intermittent ache from the shallow gash above his left eyebrow, still scabbing over, he should have been the human incarnate of a hurricane.
He should have been screaming, yelling, venting at the very top of his lungs the distaste, the dissatisfaction, the expletives that had been consuming both him and his psyche for far too long.
He should have been throwing objects around the room, entertaining possibly the largest tantrum he'd thrown since he was a toddler in his mother's arms. Overturned the coffee table, kicked the armchairs and divan, stabbed a few pillows.
Done something, anything to release all of the suffocating pressure within him, before his head flew off in a burst of sparks and bounced off the ceiling.
He should have...
But instead he sat, quietly, in his favorite chair, fingers digging into the the padded upholstery, his breaths measured and even, as he stared down over himself, the mottled tee still spotted with droplets of his own blood, the tear in the right leg of his jeans, revealing the bruised flesh of his beefy thigh.
To the woman, resting solemnly on her heels on the shag carpet in front of him.
Alas, she appeared worse for wear than even he.
Her hair tousled all over her lowered head, the darker, more obvious contusions dotting her arms and legs, the neckline of her dress ripped and ragged, revealing the thin strap of her brassiere underneath.
A single suede boot, its mate long gone, clung to her left foot, scarred, scuffed and dirtied beyond repair.
Slowly, very slowly, the head raised, and a face, beautiful, and once impeccably made up, bore smeared cosmetics and another bruise on the cheek.
Dark eyes were quite stormy and tempestuous, an expression often found in those eyes to which he had grown accustomed.
When wasn't she riled, fiery, aggravated about something or another?
A loud sigh came from her, her eyes meeting his briefly, turning downwards again.
In the chair, his eyes fluttered shut, head tilting backwards, lips parting slightly,pursing around his tongue; slim fingers untying and removing both his sneakers and socks.
The delicate, warm kisses to the tops of his feet.
The unbuttoning, and lowering of the zipper on his fly.
The pushing aside of the checked briefs containing him...
His eyes snapped opened, fixating on one of the crisscrossing, exposed beams overhead, tongue being sucked in, nostrils flaring, at the enthralling sensation of moisture enveloping him...all of his manliness.
He keened, a gasp forcing through his nose rather than his mouth, her head bobbing over his nether regions.
She did have a mighty spectacular way of getting on every last one of his nerves.
She did annoy him to no end, to the point he often fantasized of letting his fist fly into her minuscule face—a desire he knew never to indulge.
But...four years were indeed a long time...
They'd been through so much...
Shared so much, good alongside the bad...
God!”
He cried, voice rough and hoarse, kisses being exchanged for the blessed suction.
She always did know how to beg his forgiveness for all the times she drove him to the verge of insanity.
The eyes widened, and he couldn't help but wonder, partially distracted by the flicking of an experienced tongue:
Had she gone too far this time?

Twenty-Four Hours Earlier

Strange circumstances made for the strangest pairings, and a perfect example of such a pairing was the case of Taryll Jackson and Lana Romanoff.
Fate, intermingled with an air of tragedy, had crossed the paths of the two to cross, and as a result left them intermingled.
On a briskly cold, rainy afternoon, not too long after New Year's 2011, both found themselves wandering the bare, austere, and unforgiving halls of Blessed Sacrament Hospital, plagued by the same problem, coincidentally.
While the heath of the young man and woman were, intact, optimum and even enviable by some, it was the less-than-stellar well-beings of their grandfathers, that had brought then out to the infirmary in a tizzy.
The same ailment afflicted each of the elderly men—a stroke.
And that was possibly where the similarities betwixt the two ended.
Taryll, up for over thirty-six hours straight, had left the waiting room, packed to the rafters with an assortment including, but limited to, his father, uncles, aunts, siblings, grandmother and more cousins than he dared to count, in search of a decent cup of coffee to revitalize him.
He had only been in the hall a few moments, when he first set eyes on Lana.
It was impossible to miss her.
Heading into another secluded waiting room reserved for families, she had paused in the doorway, helping herself t a steaming sip of coffee, clasped in her hands.
Whether it was from the cold or sheer worry, Taryll never knew, but she possessed the clearest, whitest, most translucent skin he'd ever seen. She was even paler than the oversized white tee she wore, billowing over a lean, hauntingly skinny frame, her long legs covered by the thin fabric of black and white tribal print leggings.
Her height was further augmented by patent pumps.
The only touch of color to her came by way of her hair, cut into a sleek shoulder grazing bob, starting as a silvery blonde at the roots and brightening into a rich, deep cobalt blue on the ends.
She disappeared into the room before Taryll could reach her, and when he finally got to the door, he was quite shocked to find her sitting alone in the room, not another soul to be spoken of.
Seeing her sitting there, all to herself, silence her only companion, Taryll had been drawn to her, forgetting his quest for coffee, nay forgetting his own grandfather.
There was something about the slim little face with hollowed cheeks and the tiny nose, and sternly set peachy lips.
The huge, dark eyes consuming her face, staring but seeing nothing at all.
She didn't even look up as he sat beside her.
He spoke to her, trying to make conversation, and received only short replies, spoken with a soft, throaty voice, laced with an accept he couldn't quite figure.
Her name was Lana.
Her grandfather had also suffered a stroke.
When asked where the rest of her family was, she stated she was it.
Her parents had died in a boating accident when she was eight and she'd lived with her grandfather ever since. Her grandmother had passed on long before her birth.
What had stunned Taryll, probably the most, was that in this misty fog of the unknown of her sole relative's condition, Lana was still as stone, no crack to what appeared a strong, self-possessed will.
Dutifully applied cosmetics, the thickly winged eyeliner, the light rouge on her cheeks, her nude lipstick, went undisturbed, as no tears appeared to have been shed.
It wasn't that she didn't care, quite the contrary, Lana cared deeply.
One look at those solemn eyes told all.
Her grandfather was her last living relative.
Taryll on the other hand bore no restraint in regards to his emotions and knew he looked as though he'd been tossed about on the receiving end of a whirlwind.
Though he was a tall, heavy set man who did cut an imposing presence upon first inspection, Taryll Jackson's face gave him away almost continuously.
Handsome with flawless, noble cut features, Taryll was a mess after his own ordeal.
He was pale, giving his tanned, coppery complexion a sickly sallow cast, his eyes, usually clear, green-speckled hazel, were reddened from fits of crying off and on, little creases of sleeplessness visible beneath them.
Hair was another matter altogether.
The blonde streaked, blackish curls at his crown hadn't seen a comb in a day and a half and by the dark peach fuzz starting to shadow his dimpled chin, cheeks and upper lip, it was clear he hadn't touched a razor either.
Half an hour passed, before Taryll got back around to inquiring about where to locate
that cup of coffee.
But he never got to drink it.
Just as he stood to find his way to the cafeteria on the floor below, a surgeon, replete with scrubs, smock and face mask entered quietly.
The surgeon spoke politely and intelligently, and informed Lana that despite all of the life-saving efforts, the emergency surgery and dozens of medications in an bid to preserve her grandfather...all had failed.
Her grandfather was gone, without ever regaining consciousness, he was sorry.
Beside her, tears welled and fell from Taryll's eyes, with him patting her and apologizing for her loss.
Remarkably, at such a blow, Lana only whitened further, her lids fluttered and she inhaled deeply, but no tears fell.
Taryll was rapt and spellbound, staring as Lana stood on shaky limbs, and just as quietly as the doctor had spoken Lana began making arrangements for which parlor would receive her grandfather's remains.
Never had Taryll witnessed such strength and once the surgeon had left, he asked if there was anything he could do for her.
She had stared at him, and very frankly informed him,
I'll get by...”
With that, she had walked from him and seemingly out of his life forever.
But as fate would have had it, Taryll came across a write-up in the news only three days later, about a late real estate tycoon, Enrick Romanoff.
The very same Enrick Romanoff whom had left his granddaughter all alone in that waiting room on a rainy Wednesday afternoon.
And as he had discovered her alone at the hospital, at the Russian Orthodox Cathedral, as Taryll entered to pay his respects and see the strange woman whom had enchanted him, so he found Lana, alone once more.
Dressed in head to toe black, swathed in a glossy black fox coat, Lana stood over a polished brown casket, staring down at the small, peaceful looking gentleman in a dark suit, running her hand over the silvery tufts of hair clinging to his liver-spotted head and the long coiling beard spilling fro his chin across his chest, a golden rosary clutched in his hands.
Not wanting to intrude, Taryll had at first hung back, silence overwhelming him, only the sound of his pounding heart, as he stared at Lana.
It wasn't right. It was insanity she should bear such a horrific loss alone.
How could her grandfather be dead, when his own was alive and well in the hospital, pinching nurse's backsides and teasing them the old rascal.
Her grandfather should have lived, deserved life just as much, perhaps more so, as it seemed he had been Lana's entire world.
She shouldn't have to be alone
Not like this.
Not on a day like this....
He couldn't resist her, felt the urge to rescue her, comfort her, something.
Anything.
Going up to her, he'd patted her back, again apologized for her loss, and asked if she'd like to eat something.
Those dark eyes stared up at him, consumed him, ate him whole, and she nodded.
As they had walked out wordlessly, she had taken his hand...
...and never let go.
Lunch had been plates of meatloaf and potatoes that neither touched and Taryll asked what she was going to do with the rest of her life.
Her grandfather was to be created and she would scatter his ashes in his native country...after that, she didn't know.
Taryll vowed to help her figure it out.
A week later, he found himself in Moscow, tossing the ashes around St. Basil's Cathedral, sunlight bouncing off its garishly hued and painted domed rooftops, and going out to the countryside to some village he'd never heard of, to pay respects the Romonovs, the last Imperial family of Russia, whom had been slaughtered in 1918 while held captive by the Bolsheviks.
Lana only stated she was very, very distantly related to them “according to my grandfather.”
A week after that, Taryll officially asked Lana to be his girlfriend and a week following that, she had moved in with him, as she had sullenly told him, her grandfather's house “now reeks of death and I need to be someplace filled with life.”
Now, four years later, Taryll was in a strange position and perplexed as to how to handle his girlfriend.
At the time he was falling for and “rescuing” his damsel, he'd never noted the age difference between them, a fifteen year gap stood between his then thirty-five and here mere twenty. Further dividing the gap was Lana was to come into a very generous estate and trust... on her twenty-fifth birthday.
And in the spring of 2015, her birthday, and access to those much appreciated funds were still a good six months away.
In the meantime, the last four years had taught him greatly about his young lover.
Lana had grown up sheltered, doted on and spoiled by her grandfather, as the only and last living relative of his dead son.
She had spent her childhood in a grand mansion, tended by a fleet of servants, was waited on hand and foot from infancy and had even had a pony for several years as she had dabbled in being an equestrian during her adolescence.
Such a lifestyle had cultivated a quiet, sullen, entitled and at times, antisocial woman with difficult ways and when pushed the wrong way, a sharp, biting and easily flaring temper revealed itself and was unleashed much like a rabid beast from a steel cage.
Lana never understood the word “no” or the idea of what a “budget” was, and frequently squabbles came in over money, and her looseness with it.
It had become swiftly apparent, Lana had been handed anything and everything she had ever desired by her misguided grandfather, but that just wasn't how life was lived in the real world outside the stone walls of the palatial home Lana had been reared in.
And more than once Taryll had had a credit card be declined and snapped in half beneath his nose due to Lana's lack of self control.
It wasn't that Taryll didn't have money; he came from a wealthy family with hands in amateur film production, real estate and other various ventures, but at the rate Lana insisted upon going, he could deposit a check before lunch and while he was still picking ham and cheese out his teeth at the local cafe, be alerted by the bank that his funds were gone.
Very often bills were tardy with payments and several times, a utility here and there would be shut off and pulled from right under him, causing him to go begging his father, grandfather or siblings for a loan to have said utility turned back on.
And the second it came up, Lana would pick a language—she spoke English, Russian, French, Spanish and German fluently thanks to being educated by a private European all-girls' school as a child—and light Taryll up like a firecracker.
In many ways, though she were legally an adult with an adult body (which Taryll had seen, touched and much more in the last four years) Lana was still a child.
A stubborn, pig-headed child whom was now his responsibility, as he had so long ago figured himself to be her knight in shining armor.
It was a conflict that tormented and ate away at Taryll day in and day out, a problem that perplexed him to no end, and when the sordid topic was brought up to either of his two brothers the consensus was always unanimous:
If you're so goddamn miserable, leave her ass!”
Alas, if it were only so simple.
If only he didn't love her so, if only he didn't know that beneath the cold, hardened, obstinate exterior, there was a warm, lively, feeling woman.
He knew her, he'd seen her, in rare glimpses, in soft smiles, and kind looks, gentle gestures, light words.
The other side to Lana that came out so infrequently. He knew she was there, if only that version of Lana could linger on and the other, disappear.
But on that balmy, sunny morning in April, when all outside the bay and picture windows of the modest Arts and Crafts cottage in the center of a quiet suburban avenue tucked into a wooded grove dotted with more sycamores and oaks than palms, was bright and inviting, a storm cloud lingered behind and hung over Taryll Jackson.
Slumping at the kitchen table, Taryll stared somberly at the mountain of papers crumpled before him.
The monthly bills, with an overwhelming amount of charges credited to one Lana Romanoff.
Whether or not she were truly linked to now defunct Russian royalty, Lana had once again been spending as though she were an Imperial Czarina and not merely an idle woman waiting for her trust fund to kick in.
And Taryll, a realtor along with his brothers eked out a decent living selling small residential homes like his own. But to keep up with Lana if she didn't stifle herself, he'd have to sell off the entire state of California!
For the last hour, Taryll had sat, staring at the charges, the bills, the payments overdue and needing to be made, not so much worrying about how, when and if he could pay them...
No, that was a mess unto itself.
Taryll had long been contemplating bringing up the matter to the little hurricane that barely made a dent in the mattress beside him in bed.
For a man as girthy and swarthy as Taryll, as manly looking as they came, Taryll didn't like arguing and tried to avoid confrontation until it was absolutely, positively necessary.
As much as he hated to admit, today was one of those days calling for a confrontation. If only he had some cotton to stuff his ears with first, as he knew Lana went from zero to a hundred in a nanosecond.
Scratching at his disheveled curls absently, and shifting in the seat, Taryll first heaved a sigh, his eyes shutting as he sent a silent prayer to the Heavens for help and strength, and tersely he wet his lips, preparing to call her name, to summon her from wherever she was elsewhere in the cottage--
Before he could verbally hail her, across the room, the door swung, with a drowsy looking Lana ambling in.
Good morning Boo Bear...” She murmured in that fleetingly sweet manner, raking her nails through his hair as she bypassed him, making a beeline to the steaming coffeepot on the counter behind him.
Turning in his chair, Taryll was sidetracked from the task at hand for a moment, as he couldn't help admiring her.
The tall, lean figure, pouring coffee into large yellow mug, printed with a hot pink crown—never letting him forget who the princess was—and tossing in a few spoons of sugar to sweeten it. She never added cream or milk, she said it diluted the flavor.
She always did look so becoming when she wore his pajama tops...the black and white dotted one made her pale skin all the more luminous, the dark purple polish on her finger and toenails causing her fair complexion to glow.
Back to him, her hair, in a long bob, and tousled from having just rolled out of bed, was again dyed wild colors, as it seemed her penchant, a bright, platinum blonde that segued into a rainbow of saturated, brilliant colors at the ends.
Hesitating, which he always did when faced with such a burden, Taryll shut his eyes a second time and unable to stop himself felt his mouth fly open,
Lana, we need to talk about these bills--”
Her hand was in his hair, this time raking from the back of his head to the front as she was moving past him for the door, mug braced to her bosom,
Can't it wait, Boo Bear?” She questioned and was halted, as a much larger hand wrapped her tiny wrist.
Wait, why?” Taryll asked and instantly regretted as he felt a tenseness invade Lana's body, the precursor to her mood switching.
Because...” Her head turned slowly and those dark eyes were slicing him like a razor blade,
...I told you last night I was going to the salon to have my ends trimmed. Why don't you ever listen to me when I speak to you--”
I do listen to you--” Taryll started, an noticed the flaring red starting to color in Lana's cheeks.
No, you do NOT!” She barked and Taryll was jerked forward, jostling the contents on the tabletop, as she snatched her arm free of him.
If you did listen to me when I addressed you, you'd know what I was doing today, instead of asking me ridiculous, asinine questions!” The head was flung scornfully, dark eyes widening at him.
Right...” Taryll conceded, head lowering more as effort to get her tone to change than admitting defeat.
Damn right, I'm right--” Lana was cut off by him asking,
Well, when will you be done?”
Around twelve-thirty or so. My appointment is for nine, but it does take so long to wash, and condition my hair because of the colors and then cut it--”
I'll take you to lunch.” Taryll declared suddenly. “How's Antoine's grab you?”
She couldn't raise too much hell without choking if she had a mouth full of Italian food.
Peachy mouth twisting, Lana sauntered back to him, setting her mug on the Formica.
Her smooth little hands cupped his cheeks and she bent, pressing that peachy mouth to his scowling own.
She did have such a marvelous way of kissing and for a split second, Taryll forgot his troubles, only tasting the dark roasted beans on those lips, savoring the sweetened note that curbed the bitterness of the coffee.
Leaning back slightly she pecked the tip of his nose teasingly and cooed,
Grabs me just fine...”
His cheek was pinched and with that, Lana made her exit hair bouncing as she passed through the door.
Taryll watched her go, eyes sparkling, his own cheeks going scarlet, and another sigh, this time contented, caused his nostrils to flare.
He was a fool.
But then again, love did make a fool out of everyone.
And he did love Lana...
It was her attitude he hated.

* * *

...my girlfriend should be joining me shortly...I'd like to place my order now, please...”
Taryll mumbled, his face obscured by the large, gilt inscribed menu, glancing at the waiter poised by his side, notepad and pencil in hand to jot down his every whim.
We'll have the Fried Cheese Sticks to start...I'll have the Lasagna, with Spicy Italian Sausage and Shrimp Fettuccine Alfredo for my girlfriend...I'll have a Negroni and she'll have an Ocean Breeze...thank you.”
Excellent selections, Sir, the appetizer will be out to you.” The waiter nodded dutifully as he took the menu and swiftly moved away, leaving Taryll to shift against the leather seat of the booth, flush against the window looking out to the many storefronts dotting the upscale version of a strip mall.
Directly across from Antoine's more sedate, red-bricked and ivy-laced facade was the louder, hot pink and acid yellow tinted windows of the Crimp, Curl and Cut salon, where he had dropped Lana off some four hours earlier, before riding around town, doing his very best to settle up on bills and plead for extensions on those he could not cover right away.
Glancing at the phone in his hand, its whimsical case, reflecting his obvious love of food, resembled glistening, greasy strips of bacon, a small frown crossed his face as he looked again at the charges Lana had plagued him with.
They came in almost on a daily basis and what wasn't stamped out on paper, alerted him with a vibrating of the hip, via text.
And in the less than thirty minutes he'd been seated, a new slew of charges made his thigh jump, courtesy of Crimp, Curl and Cut.
That morning Lana stated she was only going for a shampoo and trim—which he knew also included a deep conditioning as she insisted upon her candy colored hair—but some how the simple trip had evolved to include extra coloring, a manicure and pedicure, ringing in at around four hundred dollars, twice what he had expected to be spent.
Across the lot, from where he had watched a steady parade of fashionable women entering and exiting the revolving door of the salon, finally...the one belonging to him made her exit.
Taryll straightened in his chair, his eyes widening and mouth falling agape in a mix of surprise and turbulence.
He wasn't so much enthralled by her appearance as he had been earlier that morning, although she did look rather becoming in a simple, heathered grey tee-shirt dress that skinned over her slim frame, being just long enough to keep her from being indecent at the same time offering a generous view of toned, trim legs, the feet covered in suede, tasseled booties.
Dangling from her neck by a thin white-gold chain, was a large cross shaped pendant, so large it was almost obscene, and massive, princess cut amethyst in the center of it.
More light danced across the multiple bangles lining her wrists as she paused just outside the door, digging into a a small suede clutch, coming up with her phone.
Taryll grimaced smugly, he'd given that phone, and it's case, in the shape of a bumblebee—his way of calling her a “Queen Bitch” without vocalizing it—and watched as she paused to take a selfie for social media.
The grimace morphed back into a frown, deepening to the point his smooth forehead became wrinkled.
He had a clear view of Lana's hair in particular, and knew that was where the extra two hundred dollars had gone.
That morning her tresses had been platinum, fading to a rainbow at the ends of her bob.
Now, as she replaced her phone in the bag and started across the parking lot to the restaurant, he saw her hair had changed.
Arranged into loose waves her hair had been further lightened to an almost stark white, interwoven with streaks of violet, electric blue, and shocking pink.
Seeing him staring out through the window, Lana waved, another bauble and gift from her star-crossed lover, albeit more modest, a pinky ring, of platinum, set with a variety of diamonds in varying cuts.
That piece of jewelry never came off, even as she slept.
Taryll was solemn and withdrawn, as the waiter beat Lana to the table, by mere seconds, setting out the battered sticks of mozzarella, and marinara for dipping, the Negroni in a highball glass, the Ocean Breeze in a cordial glass.
As soon as he was out of the way, as if on cue, Lana appeared.
Zdravstvuyte, Boo Bear...” She greeted him, voice once again soft, tender hands, now tipped in midnight blue nails, cupping his cheeks, with her bending down to peck his lips.
Hello...Darling...” Taryll managed, his own voice hoarse and dry, his entire spirit feeling weary Lana slid into the seat across from him, tossing her purse aside.
Oh, you got cheese sticks, my favorite!” She cooed, reaching, dipping and biting into one.
Taryll remained motionless a good while, staring at her, into the pale, slender face, now filled in and accentuated with cool tones of silver, white and black, her lips a very light sparkly pink, thick false eyes fluttering as she licked her fingertips, helping herself to another stick.
I need to eat something good after the abysmal time I had a 'Triple C'...” She lamented, those dark eyes rolling with displeasure.
After what those tramps put me through I think I'll just have to find another salon to take my business too. It was a complete and utter clusterfuck today!”
Really?” Taryll questioned, not really interested, and cursing himself that Lana was already getting fired up about something else.
Yes!” The eyes focused on him, before narrowing in a catty manner he knew all too well.
I was taken in about fifteen minutes late all because some dumb ass stylist—not the one who touched my hair thankfully—made the bleaching solution for this woman's hair too strong and it burnt it all off down to the damn roots. Oh, you should have seen her Booby...” Lana laughed spitefully and Taryll cringed at the alteration of his pet name.
Boo Bear was bad enough, Booby was worse!
As it weren't bad enough she was now bald as a cue ball, not to mention crying her eyes out, why...she looked just like a hog. All fat and disgusting and sloppy. I mean, hello, it's a salon with stylists, not a chapel with miracle workers. But some women just don't care I suppose...”
Another stick was consumed and Lana tittered,
I don't know what she was going for , but that straight platinum she was trying for would have done her no favors. It was all wrong for her coloring. I know I dye my hair crazy all the time, but I bet you every color I pick is flattering to me...”
Picking up a stick she pushed it to his firmly pressed lips.
You're not eating, Honey. I know you like the sticks too! Have one.”
Against his will, as his appetite had since faded, Taryll allowed the stick into his mouth chewing on it and only barely noticing the saltiness of it.
...besides, I know how to eat in moderation. I don't shovel in everything all the time. I never once heard of a person dropping dead from skipping a meal here or there to keep their figure. You saw me, I had a few sips of coffee for breakfast, and lunch now should hold me the rest of the evening. That's how I stay a perfect size two--”
She was interrupted by the waiter returning, a steaming platter on his hand.
Shrimp Alfredo for the lady, and Lasagna for the gentleman, enjoy!”
He announced gleefully, setting the plates before them.
While Lana dug right into her plate, chewing daintily and continuing to dominate the conversation, blasting the damage-haired woman whom had dared to push her own appointment back, Taryll's gaze was downcast on his plate, with him pushing a chunk of sausage around rather than eating it.
He had to talk to her, let her know how he felt. Had to make her see things his way before it were too late. It was already getting to be too late.
And then that stupid, horrid creature of a shampoo girl almost ruined the make up it took me almost an hour to put on, letting the damn suds run down my forehead--”
His mind raced, his blood pulsed as he tried to figure the best way to breach the topic with her, and in a fit of pure adrenaline that overrode his best intentions, Taryll blurted,
How did you manage to spend thirteen hundred dollars at Sephora last month?”
The fork, which had been twirling, picking up another helping of linguine and cream sauce came to a halt.
Slowly the dark eyes came up and peered at him a long moment, with her stating matter-of-factly,
Cosmetics.”
The fork poked into her mouth.
Tearing his eyes from her, Taryll looked at the lit screen of his phone, begging,
I know that! I know Sephora sells makeup! What I want to know is why did you spend sixty-seven dollars on a foundation? Twenty-five on eyeliner? Thirty-two on lipstick, and you bought eight lipsticks at that price each! Forty for eyebrow pomade—what in the hell is eyebrow pomade? And eyeshadow palettes--”
And I suppose you just want me to look like shit all of the time, Taryll Adren?”
Hazel eyes came up in confusion.
What?”
I do all this making up and maintaining and watching my figure and everything else for YOU!”
The fork was thrown down with a clatter and for a moment, Taryll wanted to take cover beneath the table.
He'd done it now.
Excuse the hell out of me for wanting to look good for you, Taryll.” Her tone went acidic, arms crossing over her chest. “This all does take time and effort. The hair and makeup, the watching what I eat, the putting together outfits to charm YOU. What the hell would you prefer, a fat, sloppy bitch who did nothing but eat and wear sweatpants all day!”
No...I want you...” Taryll started weakly, staring past her rather than at her.
Well, then!” With a haughty toss of her head, Lana reached for her fork, and Taryll's lips parted with him mumbling under his breath, or so he thought,
But it shouldn't have to cost an arm and a fucking leg to look presentable...”
This time the fork went airborne and hit him smack in the chest.
You want to ride my ass about makeup, fine, lets talk about makeup then.
Lana's eyes blazed in her head and her mouth became an imperceptible pink line on her face.
I'm fair, incredibly fair, as you can tell. I don't tan, if I lie out in the sun I'll burn and fucking blister and I'm allergic to whatever's in the sunless spray tan, so I'm stuck pale as Casper the ghost! Not to mention my skin is inherently sensitive anyway. It always has been. I can't put just any damn type of makeup on or I'll break out, get a rash or worse. And sometimes even the lightest option with a certain line isn't light enough for me. We can't all be golden bronze like you--”
You know hell well I'm Black and Latin! I'm nowhere near European like you!” Taryll snipped back, his fork being placed on his plate. “I wasn't able to choose my lineage, and neither were you!”
What I'm saying is...” Lana's voice went up a decibel, and her arched, filled brows, raised with it,
It takes special consideration and effort to make myself look the way I do. Sure some other girl with a different skin type might be able to get away with cheaper cosmetics, but I cannot.”
Did she always have to be so damn condescending when addressing him?
Wasn't he older than her?
It's not just the makeup Lana. It's not just that...”
Somewhere deep inside of himself, Taryll found the will the continue pressing forward. This was a conversation well and long overdue. Perhaps they were in the wrong setting for such an altercation but he couldn't stop now.
What is it then?” She was munching on another cheese stick, but her gaze remained scathing, teeny nostrils flaring.
It's...it's...” Taryll faltered, scowling as blood surged through him renewed,
It's everything, Lana!”
He declared, chest heaving his breaths quickened beneath the grey cotton of his tee, matching her dress.
You overspend on everything! No matter how I ask, how I beg, how I plead. You over spend on clothes, and shoes, your hair, even the groceries you buy. Yes, I know organic is best but we can cook just as well with a three dollar carton of farm-raised eggs as we can with the twelve dollar, free range organic eggs. I've eaten farm-raised food all my life and I'm fine and dandy! You do too much all the time. You moved in with me, into MY house. You spent a year bitching and moaning about wanting to buy a new, larger home...”
Taryll had found both his groove and his tongue and was unleashing the hell that had been under his skin for years.
Why? I don't know! It's just the two of us living together. We had a goldfish, but he went belly up years ago! We don't have children and I know we won't have them the way you keep birth control and Plan B in the bathroom all the time--”
The pink mouth started to open and a finger wagged at her,
Don't mention a condom to me. You know I'm allergic to latex and sheepskin! Used that the first time we ever did 'the nasty' and I broke out in hives and had to take so many antihistamines I thought I was Mr. Peanut for a two days!”
I couldn't help it if you were allergic!” Lana simpered, tilting her drink to her mouth and in return, Taryll downed his in a single gulp.
I went along, I let you turn the house into a show place. But for every antique you went and grabbed, you could have just as easily gone to Ikea, given me a wrench and let me assemble the furniture! And for what, I don't know! You're an introvert, you don't like to be sociable--”
The white face was turning crimson.
I was raised very sheltered, you know that--” Lana grumbled, bottom lip poking out as she pouted.
And that has been to your detriment.” Taryll responded coolly, eyes flashing.
You don't like to mix. You don't like to be around other people. You only do it when you have to. You don't even like to be around my family. And you know we're always getting together for birthdays, holidays, barbecues, paintball, game nights! That's what we do! Lana...”
Taryll inhaled deeply, chest puffing as he finally arrived at the meat of the whole argument.
Lana in the last four years, I've given and given and given...I saw you alone at the hospital, held you in my arms when your grandfather died. Brought you into my life after the funeral. Hell, I even went to Russia and ate borscht for you! For four years, I've done and given you everything you could possibly want. The house, the clothes, everything to try to make you happy. But Lana...”
His voice broke as he stared at the ceiling overhead, trying to will away the tears starting to brim in his eyes.
Lana...what about me? What about me? All the worrying I do trying to make ends meet? You go out to buy sweaters and come home with a mink coat. Always go above and beyond our means. I'm not a poor man, far from it, and I do want to provide for you as a man should, but there has to be some kind of boundaries observed--”
Nag, nag nag!” Lana exploded suddenly, and stood up so swiftly, the entire table was thrown into Taryll's guts, winding him.
Don't do this, don't buy this, get something cheaper. Cheaper, cheaper, cheaper!”
A sharp nail poked him in his chest as her voice raised, garnering the attention of other patrons.
All you do is cry cheaper, Taryll! What do you think I am? A cheap woman? Is that why all you want me to have is cheap things? Why can't I buy what I want. You know my trust gets turned over to me in a few months--”
It was Taryll's turn to stand and in her heels the pair met eye to eye.
A hell of a lot of good that trust will do.” His voiced dropped several octaves, his eyes narrowing. “With the way you're going you might as well just sign the whole damn shebang over to the fucking bill collectors!”
The head tossed flagrantly,
I don't see why in the hell I have to tone myself down to appease you! My grandfather--”
--is blowing in the wind around Moscow!”
Taryll finally broke and shouted directly into her face, and she staggered, taken aback, eyes consuming her face, stricken.
He's dead! Gone! Cremated, ashes scattered in Russia! Been dead for four years Lana! I'm not your grandfather! I'm not Enrick Romanoff! Never have been, never will be. I'm Taryll Jackson! I'm not a big fancy tycoon! I sale modest cottages for a living with my brothers and my father! I'm not trying to be someone I'm not. I' not hiding behind big name labels and fancy haircuts and other crap, like you do! I'm standing here in a tee and jeans I got at Target and sneakers from Footlocker. And I'm not any less of a man because of it, Lana!”
Hands wrapped a wasp-thin waist and Lana sneered at him.
Funny you mention your clothes Taryll.” She scoffed devilishly,
When right now there's a closet full of Armani, Ralph Lauren, Perry Ellis, Calvin Klein...all kinds of name brand suits, and ties and silk shirts and pocket squares and wingtip shoes--”
Here we go—I'm a realtor!” Taryll cried, his hands balling into fists at his sides and quivering. “Of course I have to wear a suit when I'm showing and selling a house! It calls for it! Who in their rabbit ass mind would wear jeans and sneakers? It's a prerequisite! I fucking work! I don't sit and wait around for the money left to me to kick in! I MAKE MY OWN!
Her hand was in his front left pocket digging around.
What the hell--”
She came up with his key ring, the crystal guitar charm twinkling.
Since you're good at making your own way, Taryll Jackson...” Lana stated, balling the keys into her hand “...have fun finding your own way home!”
Lana!” Taryll exclaimed in dismay, as the multicolored head began moving away from him, with her making a hasty retreat.
He waved to the waiter, indicating the lunch be placed on his tab, as always, and Taryll was racing after her.
LANA!”
Lana was several yards ahead of him already, crossing the lot, and Taryll's pace quickened further when he heard the distinctive boop-boop of the key-less entry chirping.
Lana! Shit! Lana! Lana! LANA DACIA!”
It was his turn to call both her first and middle names.
Leave me alone, Taryll!” She shouted back , the sleek, pearl white Mercedes GL450 SUV that Taryll had gifted himself for his fortieth birthday coming into view, it's tail lights on.
You can't take my fucking car! It's MY car!”
Seeing she intended to roll away with the fifty-thousand dollar treasure he'd been saving up for, long before he had ever heard the name “Lana Romanoff” a burst of energy propelled Taryll forward and just as a manicured hand was laid on the door handle, the back of her dress was clutched in a fist.
Give me my keys!” He demanded pulling her back.
No!” Lana was defiant and trying to pull away.
Give me my goddamn keys, Lana!”
He ducked, narrowly avoiding getting his eyes clawed out as Lana reared, her hand swiping at him.
I won't either!”
The two continued to grapple for some time and Taryll, though angry, knowing he couldn't physically put his hands on a woman, even if she were being the very essence of the word 'bitch', incurred a few wounds, between having his hair pulled, a stinging slap to his jaw and a punch to his left shoulder.
Dodging a punch aimed at his stocky gut, Taryll's common sense waned and he clutched the back of Lana's neck so hard, he could feel the vertebrae.
Last time, Lana...” He warned bringing his face, turning purple as he fought to restrain his emotions,
GIVE ME MY MOTHERFUCKING KEYS—NOW!”
Lana, probably for the first time in her entire twenty-four years of having her way, stared at Taryll with new eyes, huge as saucers, glassy, dazed.
The first time she had ever been challenged and certainly the first time Taryll had taken to raising his voice above his normal soft-spoken tone at her.
His free hand was extended to her and the keys were dropped into his palm with a tinkle.
Hazel eyes fired up to pure green as he looked her over, giving her a mild shove away,
Get in...we're going home and finish this conversation. Tired of being clowned in front of God and everybody.”
Lana was shoved, rather roughly towards the rear of the vehicle, indicating she round it and get in on the passenger side.
Lana lingered, hand to the cross dangling near her belly button, Taryll slipping in behind the steering wheel.
There was a dull clank, and though he was hidden by heavily tinted windows, Lana knew he had leaned and pushed the passenger door open for her.
Even when they argued, he treated her with respect.
Slowly, as the engine purred to life, she tentatively picked her way around and got in.
Taryll sat, hands gripping the steering wheel.
Out of habit, Lana reached over and switched the radio on.
...Girls hit your Hallelujah—woo! Girls hit your Hallelujah—woo!...”
Taryll switched it back off, and in the silence, his heavy breathing was audible.
After a long, tense interval, he spoke, haltingly,
I'm...I'm sorry I grabbed you, Lana. I...didn't mean to put my hands on you like that. I'm not supposed to put my hands on a woman. I've been taught better than that...”
Looking down at her hands wringing in her lap, Lana, sighed and nodded,
I know I got on your nerves--”
Still, that's no excuse and I apologize for doing that. It won't happen again.”
He vowed, glancing up into the rear view mirror and began easing the car out of it's spot.
It's just...Lana...” One hand was caressing her knee. “You...you never listen to me. You else ignore me or do like you did now, started hollering at me. Making a fool of me in public. Everyone in Antoine's was looking at us, me especially, like we were crazy. When we get into it like this, there's a breakdown of communication and I'm sick of it. At first when you lashed out and shut down on me, I attributed it you grieving for your grandfather. But it's been four years. Not trying to tell you how to grieve, but don't take it out on me. I'm your boyfriend. I love you. But you don't respect me, Lana.”
I do--”
Absolutely not!” Taryll cut her off, the car easing across the pavement towards the road. “ I have a certain income. I have a certain budget. It's there for a reason. I don't do it to torment you, or be cruel to you. Now I know you'll reimburse me when your trust comes through, but until then it won't kill you to learn how to live like a normal person. Your name maybe Romanoff, however you want to spell it, but you are not Anastasia. You're not Imperial Royalty. You're Lana, Taryll's girlfriend. You live in a one-story bungalow in Sparta, not a castle in St. Petersburg. I'm not some prince or king or duke, I sell houses for a living and if I'm lucky, we keep a roof over our head, food in our bellies and dinner and a movie once or twice a week and a vacation in the summer somewhere reasonable.”
I...I know that Taryll--”
Stop taking advantage of me.”
Though Lana didn't meet his gaze, she could feel it on her as he came to a stop at the street, waiting for an opening to merge with traffic.
It's not right. I've let it go on for far too long. I tell you 'spend five hundred' and then the bill comes in at five times that. This is a relationship. You're twenty-four-years-old. You're not a child. I'm your man, not your babysitter. You should be able to grasp and comprehend the things I ask of you.”
His hand moved up slightly from her knee, squeezing at her thigh.
Now, if I were a lesser sort of man, I'd have likely left you destitute or put my hands on you in a cowardly way, worse than clutching you by the neck.”
I know.”
But you can't continue treating me this way. You can't keep getting so hot and fired and aggressive with me. I know you're like that, that's just how you are, but I'm sure you can control it better than you have!”
The small white hand was gripping his larger, golden one.
He started to merge with the congested traffic flying by on the road..
Smiling up at him, a genuine smile, not a put on effort as fake as her color, Lana vowed,
I do love you, Taryll. I'll try hard--”
BAM!
All went black for what seemed like a second, but when Lana came to, and for a split second she wondered if she had all but imagined that powerful, bone crunching jolt.
And that's then the pain hit her, seemingly all over her body at once.
Her eyes fluttered and then snapped open.
Smoke and dust swirled around her, a steady pinging noise reaching her ears.
She was draped across a deployed airbag.
Oh my God!” She whimpered, panic gripping her all over as she took in the cracked windshield, the folded in dashboard, and the hood crumpled like a sheet of paper.
That's when she realized something horrifying—she couldn't see Taryll.
Taryll! Taryll! Oh Taryll, speak to me! Taryll! Please! Taryll! Are you alright! Say something, speak to me.” She cried, fighting against the bag, trying to get loose.
She had to find him, touch him, ensure he was alright. This was a nightmare!
TARYLL!”
Squinting through the mess, and despite the numerous scratches, cuts and contusions dotting her arms, she was doing her very best to beat away the airbag to try to reach her boyfriend, growing more and more frantic with each passing second.
Taryll, please...please be okay! Taryll!”
A cool wind blew on her and shrilly she heard her own name:
LANA!”
Strong hands were under her arms, pulling her from the smashed in vehicle and as the bright late evening sun blinded her, she saw a familiar face peering at her with the utmost concern.
Instantly tears flowed from her eyes and rushed down her gritty, grimy cheeks, and she threw herself into the arms of the thickset, form looming over her.
It's okay...you're okay. It's okay, Baby...” He repeated over and over his hand slippign up and down her back.
Oh Taryll...” Lana leaned back and started to cup his face in her hands.
Oh no, Taryll!” She gasped, and cried harder, as she took in his face for the first time.
Aside from a small gash on his forehead, oozing, the entire lower half of his face, from his nose down, was darkening from red to black as blood had flood over it now crusting, with more saturating the front of his tee shirt.
He was covered in bruises, his jeans torn along one leg, his thigh peeking out with a hint of his checkered boxer briefs.
His hair was all over his head, a soft breeze blowing it.
It's okay! It's worse than it looks. I just got bopped by the airbag—it's okay. Don't cry Lana! I'm alright!” Taryll was hugging her against him again.
Turning from Taryll, Lana looked back at the Mercedes.
The entire front in was crushed in, it was a miracle they'd even managed to walk away from it.
A few yards back, she saw a small red Fiat, it's front end also wrecked with a wool-gathered looking woman pulling herself out through the passenger side window, as other cars rubbernecked, while a few other people from the shopping center came running to lend a hand.
Are you alright, Lady?”
I got my wife calling 911 right now!”
That was a hell of a wreck!”
Mister, your nose is bleeding!”
Is your nose broken, Sir?”
You need an ambulance, or the cops?”
You should be sitting down!”
Are you hurt bad?
Ignoring all of the talk swirling around her head and the curious, distressed faces peering at her, a flaming surge of anger and heat flew through her scant body and she was pulling away from Taryll, her eyes locked on the woman, being helped towards the curb by a pair of fast food workers.
She was as a banged up and battered as Lana and Taryll, but as the thin woman in the tattered grey dress took to sprinting, the unknown woman in the shorts and bloody tee's woes were only beginning.
Lana—Lana, no!”
She heard Taryll scream in the background, but paid it no heed.
Lana would never actually recall reaching the woman on the curb.
The only thing she knew was some time later, she was sitting on the woman's chest, her fists flying n an unholy, unstoppable barrage, pummeling everything they came into contact with, chiefly the other woman's face.
You stupid bitch! Why don't you watch what in the hell you're doing! Look what you did! Look what you did to me and my boyfriend and our car! That's a fucking Mercedes you banged up! You got no business on the fucking road. I hate you! I should kill you! Dumbass should have fucking died! Look what you did to my boyfriend's face! If his nose is broken I'll rip yours clean off your goddamn face, you slut!
Oh, the woman tried to fight back as best she could, getting in a couple of good licks here and there but Lana, though smaller, was scrappy and overpowered her in short order.
Girl fight!”
Holy shit, World Star!”
Lana! Lana stop, she's already hurt! Lana she's crying! Stop it please!”
She is kicking some serious ass!”
I'm sorry! I'm sorry! Please! I'm sorry! I didn't mean it! Help me!”
Lana! She's sorry! Shes saying she's sorry! Stop hitting her! The police are coming!”
Fists steadily flailing, Lana struggled, as Taryll wrapped his arms around her middle, pulling her off the woman, and in one last insult to injury, she removed one of her boots and flung it, the heel hitting the woman square in the forehead.
Fucking bitch! Fuck you! Fuck you! I hope you die! Stupid bitch! Look at what you caused! Whore! Your mother's a whore too—Put me down! Put me down!
I'M SORRY!” The woman wailed, trying to get up and falling back down again.
Lana! You're going to get arrested if you don't stop—please!” Taryll pleaded, wrestling with her.
I don't want you to go to jail! Stop it please!”
Fuck jail—get off me!” Lana was mashed into the pavement, Taryll laying bodily on her back to restrain her.
Calm down! Calm down!” Taryll was whispering into her ear. “Calm down ! Quit trying to beat her ass. Be thankful we're not hurt too badly! We can get another car and clothes and things. My nose ain't broken. Busted and hurt like all hell, but not broken. Stop this!”
Reluctantly, Lana's movements slowed, and eventually halted, as the mixed screaming of ambulance and squad car sirens ripped through the air.
The next couple of hours were something of a blur.
Lana, Taryll and the other motorist were taken to the local hospital to be assessed, and for the most part all escaped with only minor injuries. A few scrapes cuts and bruises that over time would all heal on their own.
In the meantime, the police conferred with all three, looking to see if charges were to be filed and who was at fault.
The other motorist was indeed the culprit and had a citation written on the spot after admitting she had been texting and driving.
Insurance information was exchanged between Taryll and the motorist, while Taryll sat on Lana to keep her from causing a second ruckus in the middle of triage, her temper flaring once more as it seemed the very sight of the battered woman whom had caused their troubles set her off and sent her into a blind rage.
Somewhere in the middle of the medical melee Taryll's brothers, Taj and TJ, came rushing to see about them and once they found out their brother's car was pretty much totaled, offered to drive him and Lana back home.
And now, sometime close to eleven at night, Lana sat on the couch in the living room, her wounds scabbing over, Taryll to her left, sprawled in his favorite armchair, his brothers standing on the opposite side of the coffee table looking between them anxiously.
Are...are you sure you don't want us to stay here with you? I mean you both got banged up pretty good...it's no problem, really!
TJ offered, politely, scratching at the black curls sticking up every which way on top of his head, while Taj, shifting from one foot to the next, kept fiddling with the brim of the Dodgers cap covering his hair.
Staring straight ahead Taryll's head shook in the negative.
No...we're okay. Nothing a glass of wine and a good nights sleep won't fix. Thank you for bringing me and Lana home. The way the car was messed up--”
Don't worry about it.” Taj interjected, placing a hand on his brother's shoulder. “It was the least we could do. We're family. You know you need us, we're here for you...”
Lana noticed that as that line was spoken, both TJ's and Taj's eyes darted at her for a fraction of a second.
They knew how isolated she typically chose to be and it was more of an unconscious reaction than something meant to actually hurt her feelings.
I know...thank you.” Taryll remarked solemnly, blinking and glancing at his siblings.
I don't think I can come to work tomorrow--”
Don't worry about that, man! We'll cover for you!” TJ exclaimed and slapped Taj on the back, motioning to the door.
You need us, don't hesitate to call—you too, Lana.”
Lana's head came up in surprise, and struck speechless she could only look to him with wide eyes. She had never been particularly close to any of the Jacksons outside of Taryll and as far as she knew the whole lot of them loathed her and had been waiting out the day Taryll would have broken up with her.
We're just thankful your injuries weren't any worse than what they are. That's a blessing!” TJ half chuckled, rubbing at Taryll's shoulder. “Complete smashup and you managed to walk away.”
More like limped...” Taryll joked, but his eyes, going a murky brown registered the fact it wasn't lost on him how fortunate he, and Lana, had been.
We'll come by and check on you guys tomorrow, okay?” A soft smile curled Taj's lips as he and TJ sauntered across the hardwood to the door.
Yeah...thanks again, for everything! Love you!” Taryll winced, shifting in his chair, as the door was opened and the men shuffled out, calling back,
Love you, too!”
The door shut, and through the decorative lead glass on it, the pair could see TJ and Taj lingering underneath the porch light, Taj removing the phone from his sweatshirt and dialing on it.
The word “Pops” was clearly made out, and it was obvious Taj was calling and informing their father—out of town on business—on Taryll's condition.
The living room fell silent and for a moment the only sound to be heard was that of Taryll breathing, his head turning from the door and his eyes shutting tightly.
His fingers clenched and unclenched against the tufted armrests, his nails picking at the beige plaid upholstery.
Lana observed him, her heart pounding, overtaking the sound of his breaths and leaning forward slightly, she found she couldn't summon the courage to address him.
So much had gone wrong that day.
She had done so much, said so much.
Argued with Taryll, undermined him and in public too.
She hadn't intended to shame him so conspicuously; it just happened.
She got high-minded so often, almost more as pure reaction than with any ounce of thought beforehand and the repercussions were always dire.
Lana stared at Taryll, his battered, bruised and bloodied body.
His shredded tattered clothing.
The wreck, though caused by that flighty woman she'd laid fists into, and one of her Ferragamo booties had been thrown at, had been her fault.
She was the one whom had run out to the parking lot and slapped Taryll around as she'd had the intent to take HIS car and leave him to bum a ride home.
Home, which was twenty-fives miles from the shopping center the next town over.
If she had never snatched his keys and run outside, they'd have never been in the car at that moment...
Lana had been so scared, so terrified in the moments following impact.
Unable to see Taryll, feel him, find him in the carnage of twisted metal and shattered glass.
And the first thing he'd done was leap out of the car and run to her aid.
Pulled her from the car. Held her as she had cried for him.
Taryll Jackson had always been that way—concerned for her well-being, even ahead of his own.
Wasn't that how they met?
She had been alone during arguably the very worst day of her life and Taryll, like an angel on a beam of golden sunlight had appeared, talking to her, keeping her company, and holding onto her when she lost her beloved grandfather.
He had been there for her, always.
If only she could have said she returned the favor.
The little color Lana possessed drained and faded from her cheeks, leaving her with a pallid, ghostly cast in its wake, her deep eyes swelling and widening at her realization.
She HAD been a horrid girlfriend.
Taryll had been nothing but kind to her put up with her, provided for her until she could—and would—pay him back once she had access to her trust.
He had brought her into his life and loved her, unconditionally and she had treated hm so abysmally.
Lana didn't know if she wanted to cry, scream or vomit.
Perhaps all three.
Slipping from the couch, and down onto the shag carpet, she rested at his feet, kneeling, staring up at the stoic, face, the eyes shut, the soft even breaths.
Even a mess as he was, Taryll Jackson was so handsome to her.
So thick and dense of body and muscle, so very tan, his complexion making the blonde in his curls and the gold and green of his eyes, when opened, contrast and stand out all the more.
He had always been.
I...I love you...”
Lana's voice came out so hushed, so timid, so inaudible she doubted Taryll had even heard her, as his face remained slack and gave no indication of movement.
At no immediate response, her head began to lower in utter defeat and contempt.
I love you, too.”
Slowly, Lana's head came up and she was met with a weary, grim face staring back at her.
You do?” Her amazement could scarcely be hidden and he gave a nod.
Of course I love you, Lana. You're my girlfriend. We've been together for four years. It's just...just....”
He trailed off and his forehead crinkled, with him visibly doing his very best to phrase himself correctly, lest he be on the tail-end of an explosion, so volatile was she.
Head falling again and staring at the mixed shades of beige, camel and tawny threads of the floor covering, seething with remorse, Lana completed Taryll's thought for him:
It's just my attitude ruins everything.”
Taryll's features smoothed and his voice softened further than it's typical tenor tone, with him inquiring,
If you're aware that your attitude is the issue, then why don't you change it?”
I...I don't know...” She finally conclude, bereft, her slim shoulders sagging all the more. “I've...just always been this way, even as a child. 'Quick-tempered and Ornery' my grandfather called it...there just never seemed to be a cause for it, not before I met you.”
You're not a child anymore, Lana, you're twenty-four-years-old.”
Long lashes fluttered and her eyes returned to the set, concerned face of her lover.
I...I still don't understand sometimes how you want me, want to be with me, want to love me. With the way I am, Taryll. I...I know I'm cold and reserved and held back. You're so open and warm and outgoing. I don't know what you ever saw in me.” She whimpered, her hands trembling in her lap.
The realization of her actions weighed on her like the steel anchor on an ocean liner.
I saw a woman who was alone and in need of a friend and I wanted to be your friend...and well...”
Taryll sighed, his eyes going upwards to the beamed, vaulted ceiling.
...then I wanted to be more than friends. And here we are now.”
He shifted, wincing a second time, adding,
You are beautiful, Lana...and sweet and kind, when you want to be. But those instances are few and far between. So few and far between. In general you have a stand-offish way about you, I'd like to see go away...I...I want you to be sweet more often, if possible.”
I'll...I'll try...” Lana swore nervously tucking her hair behind her ears. “I want to make right--”
Just act right, please. Stop treating people, especially me, like they're beneath you. Manage your temper. I had to physically sit on you to keep you from killing that woman...”
He sighed loudly and his eyes shut against her.
I'm sorry, Taryll” She repeated in a stressed whisper.
Hmmm...” He mumbled, saying no more.
Lana was still a moment, mind racing, trying to figure what to do, how to make it up to Taryll, show him she did care.
Her eyes fell on the gash in the leg of his jeans and dotted dermis of his exposed thigh the purplish-black bruises contrasting so heavily again his lighter, bronzy flesh.
Hand absently touching after the scab on his forehead, Taryll whispered something, more to himself than to her, about needing ibuprofen.
Rising from her place on the floor, Lana retreated to the private bath of the bedroom they shared, grabbing the bottle of painkillers from the medicine cabinet, along with a bottle of water from the mini-fridge in the room. (Taryll never did like to wander in the dark at night for a drink and had remedied the problem)
In the hall, she threw back three herself, returning to Taryll.
Boo Bear.”
At the sound of his pet name, his eyes opened, and she held out the bottle.
...thank you...”
Five pills, more than the recommended dose went down, and Lana started to nag him, but curtailed herself in time.
It was the nagging and going that had led them to this predicament to start with.
Resigning to her spot at his feet, Lana watched him shut his eyes, groaning, jaw muscles clenching.
He was doing the manly thing, but she knew he was likely in more pain than her as he had been the driver and taking the brunt of the collision.
And even then, his first concern hadn't been for himself, but her.
The iciness that encapsulated her heart was starting to melt...
Before she could control herself, Lana was already in motion, her head over the hole in his trousers, plump lips pursed and pecking at the wounded flesh, causing Taryll's eyes to open and he stared at her in wonder as she fell back onto her heels, untying his shoes, removing them, along with the socks, his feet being kissed along the way.
She was kissing his feet like a pauper worshipping a king...
Light eyes shut and tightening, his forehead wrinkling along with the bridge of his nose, deft hands undoing his jeans, opening the fly.
A cool draft lit across his groin as his underwear was moved to the left, his lengthy, yet still limp manhood carefully pulled out and placed over his thigh, a tuft of black coils sprouting at the base of it.
She...she was stuffing him into her mouth.
Mmmm...!”
Despite all of his wounds and the stiffness resulting from the wreck that massacred his car, Taryll's back arched, the warmness of her mouth so inviting, so wonderfully inviting, as steadying herself, she rested her hands on strong thighs.
God!”
The head began to slip up and down on him, sucking deeply, encouraging hardness rapidly and unapologetically.
And just as quickly, it came to Taryll how such an action could undo him right away—it had never failed in the past—with him being taken from zero to creamy far too quickly.
Lana! Lana—whoa, hey! Lana!”
A large hand hovered above the multicolored head of his lover, still briskly rising and falling over his crotch, going after his one-eyed anaconda with reckless abandon.,
Lana! Lana, baby! Baby—please!” He pleaded, his hand finally reaching the top of her head and gently trying to nudge her off of him.
Lana, cool it! Wait a minute! Don't—don't stop...” He murmured, ecstasy over this lewd deed taking hold and overriding his moral sanity, briefly.
No....no....no...girl... Lana!” He palmed the top of her head a couple of times in vain.
Don't....don't do this to me now. I'm all banged up and stinky and nasty...you...you can't do this to me now. We had a wreck for crying out loud!
Pulling back just far enough to where the bulbous, mushroom tip popped from her lips, Lana informed him, voice heavy as she spoke into his crotch,
This whole time, the tub has been on and bubbling...waiting for you....Boo Bear....”
Oh?”
Arched brows rose in surprise and hazel eyes became emerald with Lana rising to her feet, kicking her spare boot off and extending a hand to him.
The water's nice and hot...just how you like it...” She nearly purred as with great effort, Taryll allowed himself to be pulled to his feet.
Between his thighs, the hardened girth of him saluted Lana, his engorged, rounded tip seeking out the Heavens.
He never did bother to put himself back into his trousers.
They wouldn't be on much longer anyway.
Slowly, stiffly, the couple moved from the living room, out into the hall and down to the still open door to the bedroom, where the satin covers on the canopied bed, dressed in exquisite shades of deep, rich malachite and burnished gold, turned back, awaiting their return.
The two proceed through and into the bath, where the lights had been purposefully dimmed, casting shadows here and yonder around the room, in some places, turning the green marble to black.
In the center of the room the massive Jacuzzi tub, built to fit at least a dozen but only used by the two, chugged and churned, steam rising from it.
Smooching his dusted cheek, Lana winked at him before crossing the room to the linen closet, Taryll watching her go, sucking in his bottom lip in anticipation.
A moment later, she exited the closet, her dress shed, her fair, yet speckled body bearing only the sheerest and scantest of plum lace lingerie, leaving nothing to the imagination.
The fabric was so diaphanous, her every delicate feature, from the small, yet perky globes of her bosom, to the teeny crevice at the base of her torso, were quite visible to the naked eye.
In one hand she carried a white orb, the size of a baseball and as she got back to him, it was pitched into the water, fizzing loudly and unleashing a the scent of vanilla so ferociously, Taryll was as high as if he'd drank a magnum of champagne.
So...” He chuckled, head tilting to the side, and for the moment, their troubles were a vague memory on the horizon of his mind.
We're going to take a bath?”
Lana's smaller form was pressed to his larger one, her lips touching the cleft in his chin.
Yes....”
The word was hissed...was she part snake?
Her hands were on the hem of Taryll's bloody tee, and quickly it had been pulled off and cast aside, revealing his plump upper body, his little Buddha belly, the graceful pectorals, of which, had somehow escaped being bruised and remained untouched, delightfully bronze.
Small kisses were delivered along broad shoulders, across his chest, starting to rise and fall at a quicker pace his nerves getting to him, Lana dropping to her knees in front of him, his jeans falling to his ankles.
It wasn't missed on him that a kiss was bestowed onto his hairy scrotum in the process, Taryll silent but staring down on her intently, his pain forgotten, the only throbbing paid any mind was that in his loins.
With a final tug, the boxer briefs were discarded and Taryll stood, naked as the day he'd been born.
The generous, substantial hips, the long legs, dense and heavy with muscles as his pastimes, other than sparring with his lover, involved a range of sports from baseball, to soccer to field hockey.
Lana was on her her feet once more, hugging his warm, malleable body, her hands drifting over the flesh of his back and fingers clutching at and greedily digging into his ample backside, so hard the burly cheeks themselves were lifted off the backs of his thighs.
At the same time, Taryll kept himself busy, doing the devil's work, firstly unhooking the scrap of a brassiere with one snap fell away from the full little tits, his hand on her back pulling her closer to him, the mounds mashing into his chest, his face nuzzling against her neck.
Scorching lips licking and smacking on her shoulder and at her prominent collarbones.
Her nails raked through his curls, her panties dropping as his mouth sought out hers, overwhelming it, Taryll chewing on her bottom lip.
Argument? What argument?
What was that?
The word had dissolved from their lexicon, entirely.
Untangling from him, Lana stepped aside, allowing Taryll to enter the tub first, with him humming as the hot water met his sore dermis.
He waded out to the back end of the tub, slowly sinking down into the shoulder deep water.
Aaaah!” He sneered, lips curling. “Feels so good...after the day I've had...”
Relaxing, Taryll's head tilted against the tiles of the wall behind him and for a second he stretched out, sinking below the surface of the bubbling surface, popping back up, his curls wet and plastering his forehead.
Resuming his position, he was oblivious to Lana's entering the tub with him, sidling up to him.
Do you feel better, Boo Bear?” She wondered and the head bobbed affirmatively.
Yes, Baby...”
Are you still mad at me?
His brows rose but his eyes stayed closed.
I was never mad at you, Lana, just frustrated.” He informed her as she snuggled up against him kissing after his neck, arms wrapping his middle.
Smoothing his damp tresses back, Lana ran her tongue along his chiseled jawline, questioning,
Can I make it up to you?”
He focused on her and his teeth shown white as her skin.
I kind of figured that was you plan, getting me in this tub that smells like a Krispy Kreme donut.” He chuckled, his hand on her neck, bringing her mouth to his.
As their tongues flicked and played against one another's Lana's hands found that juicy cock and underwater began pumping after him.
Mmmm! Mmmm! Mmmm! Lana!” Taryll hummed, her lips leaving his, sucking and gnawing over his shoulder and down to where his body met the water, enjoying the sensation of being played with instead of just being played.
Taryll Adren?” She was in his hair again, the water darkening the wheat and ash blonde in his locks so becomingly.
What?”
The raking of his hair slipped down with her starting to massage his temples.
Why--”
I love when you do that.” Taryll interrupted, his hands massaging her in return, much lower, as he squeezed after her boobs.
Why...” She paused to take his hand and kiss the knuckles, “...why do you have a big dick?”
Ha! Hahaha! Oh God—hahahaha!” At the inquiry Taryll couldn't help but roar.
Why do I have a big dick?” He echoed staring into the smiling face of his girlfriend. “Why do you think, Sugar?”
Thin brows went up and the dimple in her left cheek, just below a bruise, deepened, as she replied saucily,
All the better to fuck me with!”
There was no need for an invitation, the mischievous glint to his eyes said it all.
Lana went to straddle Taryll and feeling his hands on her hips to guide her, stopped him.
Don't...” She warned, lips flush to the opening of his ear, “...let me do all the work.”
Well , shit!”
The hazel eyes widened and danced as Lana resumed, stretching herself over him, one hand on his shoulder to steady herself, the other guiding him to the place where two became one.
UGH!”
It was impossible not to cry out whenever Taryll slipped into her.
He was so long, so wide so hard, forcing her to stretch in ways to accommodate him, ways she had never experienced with previous lovers.
Oh yeah.” Taryll moaned, Lana easing him into the furthest depth of herself, until she rested atop him.
Yeah, you like that.... you know you like that... that's why you're on it...”
He taunted lustily, Lana resting her head on his shoulder embracing him and feeling his arms circling her.
Come on girl....”
Slowly, at first, Lana commenced rocking her hips against his, trying to find the rhythm between them,
Ugh....um...oh...oh...oh...Taryll....oh...” She groaned into his trunk of a neck, his hands running the length of her spine, with every movement she made.
Though she and Taryll had savored each other's bodies more times than she could count in the last four years, it never failed to amaze her, one—how big he was and two—how she managed to fit him all inside of her.
With the proper rhythm established, her rocking increased.
Yes...yes....yes..... fuck me...fuck me... oh girl....oh yes...”
Taryll intoned head falling on the marble, hands sinking below the water and clasping down on her small, smooth cheeks helping her along.
Don't rock....don't rock!” He snorted, Lana pulling herself upright on him, lips meeting his hotly.
Bounce on me. Bounce on my dick! Oh, Lord! Ah! Ah! That's it! Ah! Ah! Fuck! Yes!
For leverage, Lana gripped onto the tiled sides of the tub on ether side of Taryll throwing herself up and down on him.
Yes Baby! That's it! Yes Baby! Yes Lana! Shit! That's the spot! Get it girl! Yes! Ah! AH! AH!AH!”
Taryll cried into the breasts quivering in his face, his mouth opened and closing down on a nipple tongue swirling around the areola.
Ugh! Ugh! Ugh! Taryll! Ugh...Tar...ugh! Ugh!”
Lana threw her head back, Taryll's arms crushing her as he pushed his face harder and harder into her chest.
Motherfucker!” He snarled, arching against the jets, and found Lana's hands clutching his wrists, bending his arms back and against the wall.
You're working me girl! You're working me!” He huffed, breaths becoming more and more labored with each passing second.
Lana was suddenly gripping his shoulders.
Taryll! Taryll—oh! OH!”
She had to get away from him.
Had to get off of him, before it was too late--
Yes—hey!”
Taryll cried, his shoulders being pressed with Lana starting to stand.
NO, what the hell!”
He was crushing her wrist pulling her back down into the water.
Don't leave me now. It was feeling just right...”
A small scowl crossed his features as Lana tried to jerk away, this time being less successful than she had been in Antoine's.
If...if I keep on...” Her cheeks glowed with a touch of embarrassment as she couldn't bring herself to tell him she had been too alarmingly close to her peak.
I know...” His eyes shone green in his tanned, angular face. “That's what I want.”
With a single tug, Lana was pulled back down into the water.
You want to run everything. This is a relationship, not a dictatorship. My turn.”
Lana was then pushed towards the other side of the tub, with such force, , she draped over the edge, water spilling out and wetting the floor.
So quickly, she couldn't even regain her bearings, Lana was aware of an added weight on her back.
Taryll.
You started it...” He grunted ominously,his arms going around her shoulders.
Taryll—Taryll wait—ah!” Lana exclaimed feeling that hunk of meat, spreading her to inconceivable proportions again.
...and I'm going to finish it.”
Oh God!” Lana's head droop, as his full potential was realized inside of her, pushing her to her limits.
Oooooh....Oooooh....Oooooh.....”
He was moaning in her ear, the water around them sloshing, his turn to nestle the soft, sogginess of his pubis against her backside.
TARYLL!” Lana screamed, without precedent, as Taryll began ramming into her each strike hitting a hole in one.
TARYLL! AW! AW! AW! AW! UGH! AW! AH! AH! AH!”
That's what I like to hear.... you saying my name! Burns me up! Fuuuuuuuck!” He remarked through grit teeth, unseen to her, his face was growing scarlet, and balling up from his exertion as he continued to pound away at her.
His arms once around her shoulders, eventually worked their way up until he was effectively holding her in something of a choke hold...
...and in such a compromising position Taryll finally had the upper hand, and utilized it to his benefit.
You're gonna stop taking advantage of me? I'm nice, not fucking stupid! You gonna stop?”
He beseeched her, watching the tousled waves flopping with each thrust of his powerful hips.
Ow! Ow! Baby! Ow! Yes! Yes! Taryll! Baby! Boo Bear--” Lana was choking, with him weighing her down further, until the side of the tub threatened to make her sternum collapse.
I'm the man! Who's in charge? Who's in charge?”
YOU! Taryll! Please! Fuck! Damn! Stop, please!”
You gonna be nicer to everyone, especially me?”
Yes! Boo Bear! Taryll, oh Christ!”
You gonna be friendlier to my family, my brothers included?”
YES—Taryll! Ah! Ah! Ah!”
You gonna—SHIT I'M GONNA POP—you gonna do the things I ask you? And stop being so goddamned aggressive?”
Yes, Baby! ANYTHING FOR YOU! I'm sorry! Taryll! Stop! OH MY GOD!”
Lana's arms came out from the water and she stretched, clawing at air in a frantic attempt to get away from him.
I'm gonna come! Taryll--” Lana stopped mid-sentence, her mouth dropping open in a silent scream, eyes shutting, face going as purple as the streaks in her hair.
Under him her body went limp as she surrendered to him, in more ways than one, with a weak squeak in her native tongue.
She hung over the edge, her hair physically moving, Taryll breathing so hard on the back of her head.
At that point Taryll wasn't sure if he was more turned on by his lover's little lithe body or the fact she had agreed to be more pleasant to him.
Did he even give a damn?
AHHHH! AAAAAAAHHHH! SO GOOD TO ME!!! AAAAAHHHH! LANA!”
Taryll screamed, partially lifting up off of her, holding onto the sides of the tub so hard his knuckles popped.
Ugh....ah! I'm gonna...gonna...POP. It's coming—here it is....Shit...
His tone fell considerably and Lana could feel the soft, hot splashes of his affection deep inside of her.
Oh...aha! Oh...I love you, Baby.....”
His kisses covered the back of her neck, with him asking, as he withdrew himself from her, hand fiddling between her thighs, with her jerking at his touching her so very raw, sensitives regions.
You gonna do what I asked, or were just hollering yes, because my cock was so far in you it was about to come out your nose? “
I...I meant it...” Lana gasped, damp hands pulling her hair back so Taryll could peer into her face.
I really do—honestly Taryll...”
Turning she faced him and threw her arms around his throat.
I love you too much. I already caused too much trouble today... and I won't do it again. I swear.”
A grin of relief took over Taryll's wet visage and he whispered, his nose bumping hers,
Kiss on it.”
Gladly!”
Hugging tighter than they ever had, the pair kissed.
A kiss so brilliant, so fresh, and so new...
Just as their rekindled love...
A love, thought it went unspoken, Lana intended to never take it for granted again
She'd come too close to losing it all.
Never again.

* * *

...Taryll? Yo Bro, you up? Lana, Taryll? Anybody home?”
Via the key hidden in a potted plant on the front porch, Taryll's brothers Taj and TJ let themselves into the oddly silent and still domicile the following morning.
You...you don't think they went back to the hospital, do you?” TJ commented, shutting the door.
Nah, you know good and well Taryll would have called us.” Taj deflected the notion, looking around the living room.
Taryll's busted sneakers and the lone boot Lana had been wearing.
Taryll? Lana? You here?” The pair moved down the hall, peeking into Taryll's home office, out onto the back patio, and in the kitchen, finding all vacant.
Doubling back, they noticed the door to the bedroom open, and without a moment's thought TJ was jogging for it.
Taryll?”
Where the hell can they be--” Taj hung back a few feet, chewing on his lips thoughtfully
Aw shit!”
Out of the door to the boudoir, TJ came staggering, a hand pressed firmly over his eyes.
Expecting the worst, Taj's stomach dropping to his toes, he took flight, rushing to the door and coming to an abrupt stop inches past the threshold, a wave of relief rushing over him.
Curled together in the center of the bed, both sporting nothing more than their birthday suits, the couple were sound asleep, Taryll unknowingly mooning them as his booty stuck out from beneath the satin sheets.
Lana's head rested on Taryll's chest, the morning light dancing off her pinky ring.
Hand to his mouth to stifle his laughs, Taj backed out slapping TJ on his arm as he went by, commenting,
Whatever happened before that damn wreck, I guarantee, had to do with some kind of an argument...and they must have made up last night.”
He could have put some drawers on! Lord, I didn't need to see his bare ass! My eyes!” TJ groaned, holding his face in his hands.
Quit being dramatic. We're all grown” Taj gave him a shove and the two made haste for the door.
Passing out onto the porch, TJ quipped as Taj locked the door after them, tossing the key back into the plant,
How long do you think they'll stay reconciled, you know Taryll and Lana butt heads all the time.”
Broad, yet slump shoulders shrugged with Taj guessing,
Search me, with the way Lana is, you can't tell. Taryll is so non-confrontational and easy going and she's so fiery--”
Aggressive.” TJ interjected with Taj nodding in agreement, tossing his head to clear the braids from his eyes.
Solemnly he reasoned,
You know what they say, 'Opposites Attract'....come on, let's roll out to Starbucks, my treat....”
As the red sedan which had brought the brothers departed, in the house, a set of dark eyes opened, taking in the blissfully slumbering face.
Rubbing her hand over his head, feeling it beating under her palm, Lana whispered, closing them back as sleep crept back on her.
I love you, Taryll Jackson, and I will show you the love and respect you deserve...from now on...”
Had she kept them open even a second longer, she'd have seen the smile of relief curling on Taryll's face, just above her head.